How Can I?

Everyone has their say in my life
What I should do, think, who I should see
Want whatever they can get from me
But they all say I need to get better
How can I?

How can I get my bills together?
If they are constantly adding them?
How do I get rid fo the stress?
If they are the ones who are causing it?
How do I begin to start fresh?
If they keep taking me me back?

How I can?

No one sees that I'm slowly dying
My body and spirit withering away
Sunlight brings no warmth
Nor does food nourishment
Thinner, weaker, moment to the next
Mind slowly separating from sanity
And no one there to bring you back.

How can I stop crying?

If my tears are for them?
Each drop contains a prayer
For completion of their destined paths
How can I bring myself back?
From where their words sent me?
Spiked syllables and forked tongues
Dug the ditch in which I sit.

How can I get over what I lost?
If they remind me of the sorrow?
The days when confusion held my head
And love held tight to my heart strings
How can I get to where I belong?
If they take my ladder and remove the rungs?
Causing me to slip and tumble repeatedly
Over trials they placed me in
How can I get back to me?

The one who was sent to help all.
Help themselves in returns favors
That don't hurt everything
It they continually demand sacrifices?