This is becoming more stressful each day
To feel how I feel and be ignored
It's not fair for me to be feining
Especially off someone who doesn't want me
That's messed up. Seriously.
I can't put down into words how it is inside
My heart beats faster when I see him
I get nervous and uneasy
Worried about how I look and sound
Is this sexy or not, does it look right
My head spins out of control
Cause I can't get hold of it
I don't know what it is
But it is killing me softly, but oh so hard
How the hell do I let him know this is happening
What if he doesn't feel the same
I know he doesn't feel like I feel
I'm so scared cause this is different
And if I am rejected
I will surely never let my heart speak again
I shall forever hold it hostage
In a dark world void of emotions
No happiness or enjoyment
Cause all of that will be of no joy to me.