I don't want to be this way, constantly confused
Mind so dark & cluttered
Can't see which direction to choose
Thoughts & ideas run track in my head
Deep, dank feelings so close to being dead
Screaming out for help but it falls on deaf ears
"Someone please frigging help me!"
I can't take this no more
Crying at the drop of a dime, bawling
Thinking everyone is out to get me, plotting
Scared of being lonely & sad, plummeting
Into a world of no imagination
I can hide it no longer, it is seeping out
Pulling me, slowly, grabbing small pieces
I yank back but almost stumble
It is too much, too much, too much
I don't want to die like this
Never will I hurt myself cause I love me
Never will I hurt myself cause my seed needs me
Never will I hurt my kids cause they are the world to me
But my actions are marking them unintentionally
By seeing mama go crazy at a young age
I don't want to be remembered as unstable
Unloving, as a bad influence to others
But I'm telling you if help doesn't come quick
I'm not truly sure, I'm going to make it
The stress of bills, prices, and goods
The pain of being depressed and solitary
The aching for release from heartbreaks
Somethings got to give, release me
I just want to live.